12 hours of sleep

[stef_tm]

...and I feel a bit better.


I think yaaresse hit the nail on the head that this is emotional exhaustion; perhaps the best thing that can be said of all the weirdness (that began in '08) is to quote the Grateful Dead what a long, strange trip it's been. I appreciate all the support; nokomisjeff is correct that I've shed a toxic person and this is a *good* thing.

Reading brian1789's recent entries inspired to me to share to get support. I had no idea just how much support I received and it had a very positive impact on me.


In other news, I have begun watching recent movies (i.e. post 2006) - finally caught "There Will Be Blood" which I adored. Looking forward to seeing it again, this time without commercial interruption.

Other reviews:
- If you haven't heard of Lana Del Ray, you may be living under a rock. She's actually an artist named Lizzie Grant who has been repackaged by her management to help sales. Don't let that stop you from listening to her. She's fabulous.

- I read non-fiction almost exclusively and most of my reading lately has been centered around chaplaincy and materials science. Not much general fare. If you enjoy Buddhist writing, I highly recommend the accessible, "Who Ordered This Truckload of Dung? Inspiring Stories for Welcoming Life's Difficulties" by Ajahn Brahm. The subtitle is a misnomer. There are 108 stories that share Buddhist themes, many of them Brahm's personal experience, and an equal number laugh out loud funny.

- Do catch Brian Greene's latest NOVA work "Fabric of the Cosmos" - you can watch episodes on PBS.org and the Quantum Mechanics episode was outstanding.

Comments

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

I wish I could say "you're welcome", but I can't claim any credit, only that I was hitting bottom and sharing with most of my usual filters disabled. And I could wish you were in a happier place. Still, more support starts a positive-feedback cycle... :-)

[stef-tm.livejournal.com]

Exactly. Hope your weekend seminar went very well and you can close the loop on some challenging events of 4 years prior.

[morgaine-x.livejournal.com]

Sharing is, personally-speaking, the most important thing that lets me get through the periods of inclement brain-weather. I need reminding my perception is skewed, and that there are people who do care.

[stef-tm.livejournal.com]

I need reminding my perception is skewed, and that there are people who do care.
Moi aussi. Thank you.

[yaaresse.livejournal.com]

If I said anything that was at all useful, then I'm grateful.

Allow me to tell you one of the many things I admire about you, Stef: you don't wallow or whine or complain about drowning while simultaneously turning a fire hose on yourself. You take stock of where you stand, and then you start looking for a compass and source of light.

Also:
- Her voice is lovely and haunting. Going to go find more of her music.
- Any book with a title like that, I must read. I nominate that for best book title of the year!
- Thanks for mentioning that as I had forgotten all about NOVA being available on line. Love me some NOVA.

[stef-tm.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much; I think I let things go longer than they need. It is important to remind myself that re-orienting (using the compass analogy) does not mean I'm indecisive or ineffective.